Being a recovering drug addict means that at times one can never forget what God did, down on his luck, homeless, hungry, and broke, out of his mind; that is where God bought this drug addict from lost in a world of no hope, trapped by crack cocaine, living and thinking like an animal that’ were this drug addict was at when God reached down and pulled him out of a living hell.. Having become a slave to drugs and wasn’t even aware of it at that time, all he lived for was to get one more until the day his soul cried out the prayer that follows… (“Lord whatever it takes, please help me. I cannot continue like this.”) God appeared after a simple prayer and answered, went to jail that day and life has not been the same since.
God comes to us in strange ways; He came to too this drug addict in the back seat of a police car Overcome with peace, calmness and release; feelings of guilt and shame left; at that moment the old life left quit fighting, relaxed, and took a deep breath, would spend the next six months in jail.
While in jail he began to read his Bible and pray, a cell mate gave him a Bible study guide, “How to find God’s will for your life.” He went through it page by page. Wanted to know God’s will for his life.
A friend let him read his book Your Best Life Now, by Joel Osteen. He began to understand about positive affirmations and how they would make his life better. Upon release with nowhere to go but to the streets not wanting to return to the streets went to an Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) meeting, having been to AA before but never gave it a real chance. Fear had him, did not want to smoke crack. An old friend was at the meeting. Loaned him a few dollars and gave him a ride to the Salvation Army. Little did he know he would spend the next five months at the Salvation Army in their veterans’ program? Having served in the Army for three years, being a veteran qualified him for the Salvation Army’s program. Went to meetings, worked with his sponsor and life got better. Got cocky and wound up high. That was it. One day found himself back in the same mental state as when he went to jail. That’s when he knew God had his back. He allowed him to make it home that day. Since that day his life has been different reviewed the 12 “steps.”
Got in the middle of AA and that’s where he found God, becoming part of, not apart from. Most alcoholics are like minded. Did not learn that until getting involved making a difference in his own life as while as in the lives of others. What he found was a host of friends who said that “God had done for them what they could not do for themselves.” Around this time the group needed someone to unlock the doors for the 6:30am meeting and someone to close at 9:00pm after the 8:00 pm meeting.
He volunteered and with the support of his sponsor who thought it was a good idea. For the next ten months I would spend around ten hours a day at the AA hall.
This is why he knew God was there, didn’t work a regular nine to five job. Actually he worked very little but was able to support myself and start paying child support. Actually worked on the weekends as a bathroom attendant in bars and night clubs but was never tempted to take a drink.
God’s hand could be seen all throughout his life, odd jobs that supported me and allowed me to pay my bills, buy new clothes had a complete life, you might say. Having been injured in the service in a jeep wreck, the Veterans Administration decided to give him benefits which helped a lot. Met the young lady he’s marrying at the end of year they have been dating for three years now. When we started out everything we had could fit into three trash bags. As we continue to help others and stay in the middle of AA and take our problems to God, our lives have changed. Moving today would take a couple of truck loads.
What you have doesn’t tell how much God you have, but the more God you have, the more you will have if you practice good stewardship, that’s one of God’s promises to us. That promise comes in the form of peace; understanding, love, caring, faith and courage just to name a few. You will still have things go wrong but you learn to let God fix them because you know you cannot fix problems. We make problems — God fixes problems.
When you begin to see the Hand of God, you realize He is fixing the mess of years of foolishness. First you will cry and then you will be overcome with joy when you realize God cares about you.
As the years of recovery continue the testimony grows as God continues on a daily bases to enrich my life and show his awesome power, by revealing himself more and more the desire to do drugs is not a problem today but life has not stop. Years of foolish living leaves a lot of wreckage that has to be faced. But the hand of God is ever present and that is a welcome presents there are struggles with living the new life, struggles of wanting to live worldly and a yearning on the inside that lets me know that I must push forward one of those battles is going on in my life at the moment that’s why I am writing and reading my testimony I desire to continue to be a witness so I am shoring up by renewing my commitment to share the present of God must keep laughing because God still has my back.
Scriptures That Say I Know God Cares
Ps: 107:2 let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he hath redeemed from the hand of the enemy;
Ps: 103 1-4 bless the lord my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name. Bless the Lord, o my soul and forget not all his benefits: Who forgives all thane iniquities; who health all thy diseases; who redeemed thy life from destruction; who crowned thee with loving-kindness and tender mercies.
Ps.54:7 For God have delivered me out of all trouble: and mine eye hath seen his desire upon mine enemies.
Ephesians: 5:17 wherefore are ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is.
Quotes That Say God Cares
“God places the heaviest burden on those who can carry its weight.”
A man with God is always in the majority.
We can never escape God’s lovely essence.
People see God every day, they just don’t recognize him.
When you say a situation or a person is hopeless, you are slamming the door in the face of God.
~Charles L. Allen
Prayer is when you talk to God; meditation is when you listen to God.