The essence of “Bhagwat Gita” exhorts us to work. Work without bothering for result is the true perseverance. But as of now, can the situations present in the world allow us to work without botheration for result?
We trip and fall while we make our best efforts to push up through the hurdles of Karma. Unanticipated hindrances block our ways. Although by nature, we are benevolent, there are people on our paths, eager to harm than befriend. When all said and done, we think it is better to remain selfish and calculative for attaining our ends than working for the good of all.
We are bogged down by our own negative thoughts. We can not see our own positive sides. There are people to make snide when we are miserable. There is something that caught my attention on the front of “Oxford Idioms Dictionary” for learners of English. The words were- “sink or swim….reach for the stars….think big….be a livewire professional”.
“Hmm, fascinating and inspiring”- I thought.
“Am I not a livewire so far”-This question was intriguing?
I spent days, brooding over the vicissitudes of my life. As thoughts of hurt poured in, literally I felt lifeless. I was wondering about the ebbs and flows of Karmic energy within my being. I was pondering over my destiny. What a pity! At times, I am shocked for the untoward things of my life and there are times, when I feel buoyed up for certain things have turned good. I am wondering that in the push and pull of things, I have not become a lunatic. The Samaritan within my being is alive and kicking. Life goes on and I do not stop.
Way back, Winston Churchill said-“success is the capacity of going from one failure to another”. In my case, there is inexplicable magnetism in living life because of the zeal of a wrestler flowing within me to fight with the odds; experiment with the odds in life and accept life as a challenge.
Why is it so?
I was left wondering. There must be something within me; that bridges the gaps within the opposites like success and failure, hopes and disappointments and keeps me on the move.
But how do I get urges to live despite the Himalayan hurdles, which come in course of living. It seems that scenes or occurrences in life are sorted in a well-rehearsed sequence.
“Take grief as challenge. Do not own up to the achievements and faults that you have committed. Therein lies your ego”- Says my guru in one of our encounters.
I remember having read about one incident in the life of Shirdi Sai Baba, when he was alive. One of his buddy saints sent him one coconut through a few other pilgrims to the sacred land of Shirdi. On the way, the devotees felt pangs of hunger. They were hyper in search of food and finally broke the coconut and ate it with stale rice as there was nothing. As they reached the abode of Baba, the latter called them in and wanted the coconut from his buddy saint. All of them showed extreme remorse for failing to bring it to him. They said they would give the spiritual master ten coconuts as compensation for the one that his friend had sent. But Baba disagreed for he said that the value of the coconut was invaluable. But he told all of them not to show repentance because whatever happened, it was not within their control. Human –being is helpless in situations like hunger; therefore owning up to the good and bad we have committed is merely our “ego”.
We stick to our “ego” because we are ignorant. Ignorance is the cause of misery.
Being in an “egoless” state, an achiever must perform. But what about the hurdles which keep on appearing in his life? I kept on looking for the reply for many days.
In another meeting with my spiritual master, as I posed him this question, he merely laughed at all those claims of achievements in this mortal world.
“Transience is the real show. Achievement is just an episode. What do you understand, when one old record is broken by another achiever. He also lives in the ignorance that only after a few years, there will be another achiever to break his record. Nothing lasts before the spell of time”-He replied.
“But guruji, once born, I have to do it in a style. I have to prove myself on the karmic grounds without any attachment to my ego. How do I proceed when there are thousands of hurdles”-I posed this question once again?
Again I found him, smiling at me.
“Hurdles not only make me cry….those bring lasting depression”-I added.
“There you are….my son. You are depressed because you have developed attachment. You have invariably worked only with your intelligence; forgetting to add understanding to that. The result is when failure comes, you become frustrated”- I nodded as he explained.
I saw him again, merging in a meditative mood. Eyes closed and his ever shining mien disclosed the pearl of truth after some time.
“My boy, have you ever seen a toddler staging an attempt to walk? Toddling and walking are poles apart. But does he give up until he gets steady on his feet”-He asked again?
“Just accept the tenacity of a toddler to walk. Observe how he walks, catching at any support. Unmindful of the falls, tears and hurts, he goes on…..”- My guru was explaining.
“He does not stop until he reaches his goal of steady and firm walking. From walking, he goes on to running. While learning to run, he falls and injures himself but he remains firm in his resolution”- My guru finished.
I listened in rapt attention. Tears welled up in my eyes. Henceforth, a toddler became my Karmic guru.