I laugh the conversation makes me smile,
It seems I have forgotten for a while.
I pick up the phone I have something funny to share,
I reach out for the receiver, and suddenly realize she’s not there.
An award ceremony for their achievement,
I’ll just ring mam, if you’ll give me a moment.
It won’t take long to go and collect her,
I stop dead, I realize, then sit alone in the car, and stare.
All day long I’m doing great,
Proud I’m coping, not in a state.
I pass by a picture or something she wrote,
I see her book her tapestry, her coat.
From a person that’s felt sorted for days, I reckon,
To a gutted wreck, and crying like a baby, within a second.
No point in fighting it, till I’ve got it all out,
If I was in the woods alone, I would scream and shout.
I’ll never forget who was so precious in the past.
My love for her won’t fail, forever it will last.
But the empty feeling of a heart ripped out.
Is getting a little easier to deal with, without a doubt
Yes easier to deal with, yet still painful.
But those times are a shorter spell.
I’m sure it will be a while before I get it right.
And stop picking up the phone to say goodnight