Today is a new day for me. After a serious health scare, I have had to prioritize my life. I know this because, once again, whispers from The Holy Spirit have confirmed it in the middle of my scare. I got a gift of the unexpected from Him.
It is so easy to get caught up with priorities – at least they seem urgent until something unexpected interrupts life as we know it.
God expects me to indulge in some self-care. I deliberately use the word indulge because I came from a background where self-care was considered narcissistic, selfish, and sinful. It was dysfunctional and legalistic, and set me up for an unhealthy lifestyle.
So this health scare was a gift from God to bring me into balance.
Being out of balance, whether it’s physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual, is not how my God wants me to live. That has become abundantly clear recently. My God created a triune being: spirit, soul (mind, will, emotions), and body. It’s just too easy to feed the soul, and to act out of my will, or my emotions.
Writers are particularly vulnerable to self-neglect. We have to write when we’re inspired! And once we start, we stay with it at the expense of other parts of our lives. I wonder if our obsessive natures are what, in the end, kill us.
Today I and my dog hit the road, walking until she was huffing and puffing worse than I was. Neither of us is as young as we used to be, and both of us have health problems.
Tomorrow we will walk just 5 minutes longer, and the next day, 5 minutes longer. The point is, it’s a process.
God has shown me that when I lapse into self-neglect, He is not pleased. He gave me the gift of this body and expects me to care for it. Otherwise, how will I have the ability to be of service to Him?
And The Spirit whispered that even if I couldn’t do it for me, what about taking care of the dog who faithfully lays beside me as I write? “Can you do it for her?” He asked.
There’s something regenerating about making a new start. It’s a gift of hope, and my confidence returns immediately.
I encourage you to consider the balancing act in your own life. It brought me much pleasure today.
(c) 2009 April Lorier