The Secret That Should Have Never Stayed Untold
I feel betrayed, humiliated and violated. The experience was bad enough but keeping that secret inside me for so long made it worse. The secret should have been told long ago more could have been done, but in the end if I had the chance to go back and tell earlier I still would have kept it inside me. Now I have told someone, I thought I was supposed to feel relieved. I don’t have that feeling, I’m not so much scared of the secret anymore because it cannot hurt me any longer, but the anger that’s inside me is like a wild fire. If I wanted to I could have kept the secret forever, no one would have ever suspected a thing. Maybe once time goes by I will feel more and more relieved, I just wanted this secret to go away, I wanted to forget and move on, but it doesn’t work that way. Even if you think you have forgotten about something it doesn’t make it go away. The person that made this secret should feel awful, but yet he smirks at my name like it was something funny. What this person took away from me was something special, maybe physically I’m not a virgin but mentally I can still have my first real experience with someone I care about, someone who cares about me and someone who will make it special. This secret of being date-raped should have never stayed untold, it may have a taken a bit over a year but it’s finally out there and now something can be done about it. The secret that should have never stayed untold; rape.
-i posted this on another website it’s still my work