I cried last night. I cried for you. I have begged God for strength and his help with us, to make our relationship stronger and better. I don’t think that he is listening. I am not sure what else to do. I try to make you happy but it seems that no matter what I do I can’t win. My heart is still broken and I feel nothing but pain. What do I do? I want you to love me but you don’t seem to. I know a part of you hates me but what happened to the part that used to love me? Did I destroy it completely? Can it be restored? I do not have the answers, you do, but you aren’t telling me. I cry everyday for you, hoping that we can fix this. I wish that I could mend your broken heart. I would spend the rest of my life with all your pain if you would just love me again. I cannot handle this, I hurt so much and I know that you do too, just tell me what to do.
I want to hold on to the hope that everything will work out with time. Everyone asks me how we are, and I tell them that we are ok. I hate lying. I don’t tell them that I cry everyday and that my heart is breaking every minute. I know that it is everything that I deserve, but it is killing me. I know that you think I deserve more than this and you are probably right. I don’t deserve you or your love. It is the only thing I want in the world. All I have ever wanted is you. I know that you may not believe that, but it’s true. You have made me so happy and I will cherish those special moments that we have had for the rest of my life. I can only hope that somewhere inside you still love me. That deep down you still want to be with me. I hope that one day you will say so. Until then I will pray and cry into my pillow every night that you will come back to me.